TRAPPED: the HE with in the ME!

Deuteronomy 8:18(NKJV)

¹⁸ “And you shall remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you power to get wealth, that He may establish His covenant which He swore to your fathers, as it is this day.

I have written this scripture down in my prayer journal I don't know how many times, and no matter how much I write it still its been in my head like...HELLO YOUR MISSING IT! So last night BAM...with the help of APC by way of her FB status I got it. Her status:

"TO SOMEONE OUT THERE: it is one thing to believe GOD is able and another to believe He is able thru "U"...until u become the conduit for the manifestation....stop looking for the blessing to drop out of thin air. Deut8:18 And you shall remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you power to get wealth, that He may establish His covenant which He swore to your fathers, as it is this day."

Yep It took me a minute to pick up my face! So this prompted a "Kendra...U CAN DO THIS" pep talk with myself! I will be the first one to say that often times I simply play myself. Over the course of the last month I have been told that I really need to commit to something and find what I'm passionate about and stick to it no matter what. An although I was like dang that's harsh. It was the exact words I needed to hear and the fact that they came from 2 very reliable sources I knew that it was something I needed to face and fix.

For to long I have allowed myself to be very well guarded. I have built up walls, stop talking to people so we didn't get super close, or simply just shut everyone out so I was no longer allowing myself to be placed in a position to be hurt, used or disappointed. Well, I must admit that actually was working for a very long time and I was really content with how life was going because I was controlling things the way I felt they needed to go. Well, no one prepared me to have individuals in my life now that could care less about the attitude or me not talking. God has surrounded me with people who simply love me enough to literally PULL OUT OF ME all I have worked so hard to keep in.

In this very season of my life I am honestly seeing that all while I was believing God is able I never really put thought to him being able through ME. Its not that I doubted he COULD its that I just didn't think about it. God has placed so much in me that I have yet to discover or I have simply bottled up and kept hidden because of being hurt in the past. BUT today I stand boldly admitting to myself that "YES! God has placed a lot in me and a lot of the blessings he has in store for me will come from the power he has already given me"

I had a friend ask me was I an introvert not to long ago and it really hit me that to him I was because as much time as we all spend together there are only a few who really know that I am by far an introvert. Crazy how I have always been comfortable in who I CREATED myself to be yet very nervous in being who GOD CREATED ME TO BE. All though they do have major similarities there are a lot of key differences. So as I begin to walk in who GOD CREATED ME TO BE I am finding that I've been missing out on a lot! :)